On a previous and shared blog there was always a blog post on Sunday that went through feelings/emotions for the previous week and would list goals, intentions and hopes for the upcoming week. I want to bring that feature to this blog as I try to figure out the best posting schedule for the blog.
But I don't expect there to be a post every Sunday but a post on a Sunday where there is enough to share. With the past two weeks or so I got somethings to share.
Grab some tea, this is really text-heavy.
The past week has been a whirlwind for me, I've been job searching for approx. four weeks now and I've found a couple of good posting but not exactly hitting the mark. Which is fine, I've been out of the search for three years now and it'll take more than just three weeks to get into the flow of things.
I will say it's a bit disheartening and mentally draining after a bit.
How my whole job search began was the fact that I was approaching my 30th birthday, and barely making payments on bills & student loans, in a mediocre apartment with a mediocre and soon failing car, barely any health insurance or my own and at a job that is unsatisfactory.
(There's a whole story behind that, long story short, I should have been a full employee by now but I am still on a contract base and someone that worked there for three months became a full employee over me.)
I came to the realization that I couldn't live like this anymore.
I am too old for this and I needed to change.
Thus my search began and continued. I will be sure to update everyone when I hear good news.
Another update, in addition to being a bit fatigued (I blame anemia) my mother, who is usually dramatic about everything has myself and siblings on high alert- she recently had a mammogram and to put it bluntly she's having a breast cancer scare.
Breast cancer runs in the family, I believe her mother passed away from breast cancer as it spread to the rest of her body. So she's a bit afraid and she's never had surgery before.
In our family, my mother is the foundation for our little family and my older siblings and I scramble when she needs us, well mostly me because I'm the closest.
All of this came right before I learned that three of my coworkers have someone close to them that has some type of cancer. As an empath, and unwillingly, I have taken on some of their emotions/feelings and internalize them. Because of this, I shut down.
- I slept more than usual.
- I wasn't eating.
- I wasn't taking care of myself, I was just done.
I disappeared from social media- Instagram, Twitter, Discord, etc. I was there but not there. I also stopped streaming for nearly a week.
It was a rough week.
Somethings I plan to do this week:
- Creating a posting schedule or something of the sort.
- Finish reaching Thick Face, Black Heart - Ching Ning Chu
- Pick up my streaming schedule
- Post more cosplay pics + Post more pics via patreon
I am sharing these tasks with you to make that I am accountable to completing these tasks!
Also, it's no where near autumn yet, but I am sooooooo excited for autumn, so I will kinda apologize for all the autumn related things but not really mean it because I also need everyone to understand how much I like autumn.
Lol.
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